Rohag has an excelent post. I wish I could express myself as well as she does. I also know that when folks get depressed, they can intellectually buy every argument in the book and still won't really believe anything positive about themselves. It's hard to change those thought patterns. I guess that's why it is so important to remind yourself (and ourselves) over and over again that there are bright spots in our lives, there are important works that we do, and there is a value in our being, even while the rest of us is screaming that self extinction is the only way to end the pain. (((((Shangrala))))) Take very good care of yourself and your daughter. She will never have another father, certainly not one who lives for her and her alone