Berries = empathy+warmth+courage+wisdom+.....
Berries does not equal "sick"
Berries feels sick, Berries has a sickness, Berries is not a sickness.
OK, can you repeat this to yourself, dear? Over and over, if you can. Someday, all of us saying these things will help you to get the math to come out right. Take care, love yourself the way that we do.