Sannah and beads, you're right and I know you're right. I just need to fight against that bad side of me that wants to carry on losing weight. Connor has said I'm as thin as I was when I was 14, when he met me. I've always wanted to be that thin again, but I, in myself don't feel it so want to get smaller.

But I need to fight that urge and take on what all these people who care about me and love me are telling me. I just find it incredibly difficult when the bad side is so overpowering. I need the help of these people to help me get through that. Past that.