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Nov 05, 2009, 07:49 PM
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Two things about your post stuck out at me:
One, at least your anger is justified. It's only unleashed when people treat you bad. It's NOT irrational. I am the same way. Be upfront and honest with me, say nothing behind my back you would not say to my face and I will be the most loyal of friends. Stab me in the back at your own risk.
Two: Have you talked to a professional about your anger and a "proper" or healthy way to express it? I'm not much for advice on this point. Rage is a beast I need to keep caged and locked up tight. The power and destructiveness when I unleash it is too intense. So I tend to bottle things up. It's one of the things I am working on.
Last summer, I had made friends with a guy. I thought it was a good, mutually beneficial friendship. Well, he stabbed me in the back, even going so far as to tell others we had slept together (we HADN'T, I am married and wouldn't cheat, too much of a concience to ever do it). I was SO very angry and wanted to destroy his life.
Soon after, I became friends with my current BFF. He was patient and taught me you CAN trust people. We have a very close bond and I think he understands me better than most. My husband likes him and has no problem with our friendship.
Hang in there. You will see the good side of people along with the bad. There is not one without the other. 
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