I am engaged to a guy that i really have a hard time trusting. And i don't know if i have a really good reason to not trust him. I've been with him for a year and 2 months. We got engaged on our 1 year and moved in together at that time as well. he really seems to love me soo much. but i know when you move in with someone you just don't want to talk to them anymore and he had moved away four years ago and came back one so he had lost touch with all his friends, So I'm happy he only talks to me and he's in love with me.

So here's the problem He talks to other women now he says that he's trying to reconnect with old friends. And that's great, but i wasn't anticipating them all to be blond haired blue eyed. And i really find myself jealous.

He tells me everything and i don't react at first but then i stir in it and obsess over whether he's cheating on me I will go through his phone every chance i get and i will ask his like how his day went and if he talked to anyone and he always tells me everything and it really seems innocent.

My Problem is that he has never NOT cheated on any of his previous relationships. I am suppose to be marrying this man soon and i am afraid of weather he will be faithful to me.

I'm not the norm of his "type" and he really does not find me beautiful. And when i ask his he says that i have the most beautiful flawless skin he's ever seen and that i have very nice lips but i know that I'm not the blond hair blue eyes that he's has always been with. And that he does not consider me beautiful. Maybe i just was under the impression that when you love someone and want to marry them you do love the way they look and Believe me i am not vein but i am very pretty I have been complimented my whole life by complete strangers.

I know he loves me and that i am the one he wants to be with. And i really want to be with him. I've never been insecure in my life and i was in a previous relationship very abusive but i was never insecure.