psyclox, your not alone. i often feel like i want the sky to turn blood red and the land to turn dark and for me to be the last person walking around on the planet and i would actually feel at peace. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia a little over a year ago, though my doc thinks i've had it all my life. I have been hearing voices, seeing things, etc. since as far back as i can remember, since the age of three. The voices i hear are evil and i also see lots of monsters and demons when i close my eyes or am in the dark, yet for me, it is a comfort. They use to scare me, but at the same time they were comforting. Now im not even scared anymore of the things i see and hear and feel and believe. For me, it;s just completly normal and comforting to be able to experience such things that almost everyone else cannot. And it';s comforting to be so disconnected from everyone else.

-Becka