vicki took 150 mg of my trazadone just before seeing T. she brought 2 pills but only took one. T has other one along with a handful of pills vicki gave her mon.
she is triggered very easily right now. today it was because she told T yesterday that she knew all inside persons and told a story about a "cleaning lady" that only comes out when the house is dirty. V said that she lied about that and there is no cleaning lady. but she was really scared and took the pill because she figured if T was going to punish her or hit her for lying she would be sleeping and not feel it. (this is what T related to me). i can't find my last 3 150 mg pills. i haven't told my husband as he is already way concerned, ofcourse. i am not feeling really safe. T told V that if she felt scared she could stay inside until she felt safe. V likes being out. i can sometimes be co conscious and know what she is doing but other times not. today not. even sometimes i can "see" what she is doing but can't stop her. i feel helpless and scared. any one else "been there, done that" ???? my life is good. i don't want to lose it.
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