((((((((((( Elysium )))))))))))))

Your experience gives you a special look into the mind of a person who goes through what you went through. You are gifted in that regard. You are blessed. You are chosen. You are a survivor.

You experienced the full range of emotions. The pain. The humililation. The loneliness. The feeling of being judged. It was only by the grace of God that any one of those nurses and orderlies that cared for you were not in your place. Each and every one of them knew that.

You are strong. It will be hard at first but after a while, the associations will fade. I recently went to the ward where I spent 15 days---15 horrible days----last spring. It wasn't as scarey as I remembered it.

Thank you for your post. It was very brave of you to share it.