(((((((for vikki and you, w_i))))))))

i can't say i've been there done that, but i know 'helpless and scared' really well. i agree that perhaps you should ask your husband to watch you. he may already be way concerned but an informed concern is much better than nameless worry. i'm sure he'd rather know how hard things are for you than to have you struggling through on your own. just hang in there. feel free to pm me anytime you want. Vikki is welcome to do the same. just hold on.