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I feel totally void of all good feelings. I am not in agonizing pain. It’s kind of a numb + pain feeling.
I want to be better. Not feel better, but be better. A better person. I hate the one I am now.
I need to contribute, produce…as I once did and now don’t.
I was approved to be a mentor in a mentoring program, but told them to hold off a bit (for treatment scheduling reasons) and now I am ready to go forward & they aren’t returning my calls. Have I burned a bridge? Maybe the only bridge between emotional death and life?
Bleak. That is how I feel. Bleak.
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I love your faults because they are part of you and I love you. --my BFF
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