I agree with Rohag. I know it is easy to relate their not answering to what is going on in your life, but it is also likely to be something completely unrelated. I know I can get so anxious that I start the "oh, my God, I have pissed them off" panic way before it is really meritted. Also, I would second and third the advice to apply for other things as well. It's daunting at first, but once you get into it, a lot of the things that are out there that you can do are fun. I really am crossing my fingers for you, Berries. I think you would be a great mentor