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pegasus · Nov 07, 2009, 02:50 PM

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Originally Posted by turquoisesea

I hate being unable to do stuff I want to do because my body stops me from doing it.

I hate watching my boyfriend toil at the stove while I can't help him because i feel weak, faint, and my arm muscles hurt such that it's so hard to chop things. I did some, I cleaned dishes, I did the dishwasher and cleaned the counters. But I can't make a simple meal for him (he's sick too).

Hate being discriminated against by school for having a mental disorder.

I hate not being able to go to work... losing out on half a week's pay because I'm sick.

I hate not being able to practice because of the pain in my arms and the trembling in my body.

I hate hurting my friends. I hate having to hide. I hate WANTING to curl up in bed in a ball and hide hide hide....

I WANT to be able to do nice things for people. I WANT to be able to take care of myself. I WANT to go hide now.

Doesn't sound to me like you are useless. You manage to go to college/school despite how hard that is and you usually work aswell!

It does sound like you are beating yourself up for being poorly. You are human and you are feeling ill right now.

Be gentle with you.