six hours back in the ER today...for me
back hurts like an itch with a capital B
IV pain meds did nothing
to lessen hyper viligence
or the pain
I do not like ERs...dangerous in many ways
being discharged when the first gunshot victim arrived

Shutdown, Meltdown
doesn't matter
numb, numbest
yep, best of numb

going to try again and get some sleep
pain meds, muscle relaxer, good old phenegran
take the edge off, I hope

ERs
triage
choices
it ain't my problem any more
feels familiar
sights, sounds, smells
gotta stay out of them for awhile
or go into hiding
oh wait...I'm already hiding
soul-wise
wall is up, see the mask?
I see you from behind it
neither view is pretty or pleasant
wooden outside; see the pasted smile
inside
behind the mask
I do not give a damn

whatever