please remember
your body is under your power.
you choose whom you give your body to.
that also goes for your heart, your soul, and your spirit.
you did the right thing. for whatever reason you wanted to keep your self from 'him'.
it's your choice dear one.
it needs to be someone very special who would never leave you for the reason that he did not get 'it' . . . . .
rather, someone that sees your wonderful self and knows he must treat you like a treasure, rare and unique . . . . .
hold out for that someone . . . .

xx