Hi Jexa,
I like the email you sent to your T too.
But I have to say, the whole situation is very familiar to me and really frustrating, and makes me kind of mad.
If we were able to push ourselves into doing the things that are hard, would we really need to be in therapy? I think part of therapy is to help us address issues that we are avoiding in our lives.
I know if my T didn't ask me about it, I would not talk about my eating disorder. And, my T never tries to do trauma work, so we haven't touched on that at all. I will not/cannot bring it up.
I don't think it is fair for T's to expect us to direct our own therapy.
I think that is expecting a lot of someone who is already going outside the comfort-zone by asking for help and support in the first place.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know I understand.