Thanks for all your thoughts CQ - you are so sweet. I know I should be thankful for all that I do have, and I really am, but that does not always help (and of course makes me feel guilty).
The reality is that I really don't have a chance of getting pregnant and I really have to start facing that and deal with it. I just keep thinking this is so unfair, but I have to stop that and just deal with this. Thanks for being optimistic for me, though. I just wish my husband would agree to adopt. I really don't feel the need to be preg (although I would like to be). I would love to adopt from China.
Regarding the therapist, yes, there is something else. He sort of annoys me and I fear it will get worse. I really like his voice on the phone, but in person I felt he was not as receptive.
In terms of a husband being the right guy, that is so important. So many people settle and are in unhappy marriages, which to me is so much worse than being single. When you do find that guy, he will be very lucky!