I ask this question. Screaming within yet silence without. Tears streaming within yet nothing showing outslde of myself. Others within so scared. Constantly looking around wondering if someone is there. If someone is watching. If someone can hear. But what are they hearing for we are silent for the most part. Realizing that we are alone. That we have to make a choice in order to live. In order to not be hurt or worse.

What is wrong with me? Those within so afraid to be heard or seen except outside the walls of this place. Outside where there is air to breath, life existing without fear, and no one stopping us in our our breath to feel just anything. Not worrying if fear is seeping through the walls or breaking through the floors. If the walls breath the very fear that we feel within. Where sleep can come without fear of what lies within.

Nothing making sense. Little ones wondering if there is safety anywhere, if love exists anywhere, and feeling noone knows. Finding it hard to take one breath, to take one chance to reach out. To find words to tell what goes so deep yet fear of allowing those words to surface. And needing to for our own sanity, but even sanity does not find it's way to our very being. For fear overtakes and the breath does not come.

Maybe I make no sense but I am trying. I am afraid, yet I need to reach with all I can. And this I am trying. Can anyone hear me?

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