SOrry you are feeling all "tossed" up. SjO - u know that you have felt this way before and it got better ! As for what your friend said - in one way, she is right , we can only control ourselves - we cannot control anyone else, but IMHO - it may appear she was validating your thoughts, but that does not mean that HER thoughts are saying"Oh what the heck - if u decide to do something, its OK by me"......or that HER thoughts are right ! I am sorry also that you were not able to open up with the PDoc, but I see a wonderful change in you - you are willing to TRY the medication! I also agree with your T - dont research this med. EVERY time ONE person has a "side effect" from a medication, it has to be listed as a "possible side effect". SO - if ONE person had increased suicidal thoughts, it is now listed with that med. IF this med had gotten MANY reports of such - it would have been taken off the market - as other meds have been. I hope you will give the Cymbalta a chance !