Hi shadowdancer and welcome!

Please don't give up on therapy. It sounds like you are getting benefit from it and may not want to stop. Maybe you could talk to your therapist about being uncomfortable with quitting completely and she can keep you on her schedule as she can after your "allowed" sessions are over. You can at least be looking for a new therapist while still on her schedule and she'll probably help you with the transition.

Hope this helps or sparks an idea for you, take care and hugs.