Heh i have to do all the driving so if she did die in a car crash then so would i probably I get your point tho. The problem there tho is if something horrible did happen id really need alone time and isolation more than i do now. Having friends telling me cliches wouldnt help any for me. "I'm sorry for your loss" would just make me angry/resentful i think. I think someone was saying how extroverts gain from being around people and introverts are better with being alone. Well im on the extreme side of introverted.

Im glad i started this thread. Its given me lots to think about and given me some insight on why i feel the way i do and ill be better able to discuss this with my t next appointment. Thanks everyone.