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Nov 08, 2009, 05:47 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2009
Location: Illinois
Posts: 1,754
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It has been a long time since I feel the way I do. I have become numb. I think it could be because of stress and everything that is going on. A year ago something bad happened to me. I blocked this out of my memory and when I went to my T a couple weeks ago and he explained what happened. I was crushed. I was trying to deal with that. At the same time my fiances mom and me had a falling out that was very bad. It is very stressful. After that happened I got sick with the flu. I think half of that was stress. Also not to mention all the other problems I do have. I have come to a point of feeling numb now. Sometimes when I am around people I feel like I am in a room away from everyone. I can hear them but I cant feel. It is wierd. I want to feel again and that is why I want to cut. I want to feel again. I have been very strong with it but I cant be anymore. I have had so many emotions at once and notw I cant feel them anymore! I dont know..............
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