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Old Nov 08, 2009, 06:47 PM
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Originally Posted by justfloating View Post
I don't want to be this person. I know the person I want to be and this pathetic, terrified little girl isn't it. I want to laugh, I want to have fun, I want to do things I can be proud of and make my mark on the world. I want so badly to straighten out my life but I don't even know where to start. There are so many things I could be doing -- SHOULD be doing -- and I just ... don't. I don't even really know why. I've been told I just have to FORCE myself but at this point it feels a lot like pushing against an elephant to get it to take a step. Maybe I'm just doomed to destroy myself with indifference.
I can relate. I don't want to be the person I am. I want to be so much more, but try as I might I can't get there. You put it well--it's like pushing against an elephant.
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Thanks for this!
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