Hi Candy,
I haven't seen you post for a while and was wondering how you are. I remember you started a new job.
You describe your feelings with the effectiveness of a born communicator. It is a tragedy that you can't communicate your feelings to the one person you need to hear you.
Certain types of parents close the door to their children, for whatever reason, and make it impossible for us to get through to them. I know about this stuff, sadly.
Good thoughts, Myzen