It's been almost 6 weeks since the last time I cut, but today was bad, and I tried & tried all the distress tolerance skills I've learned in dbt, but in the end my desire to cut was just too great. I knew it would feel good, and it DID.

but now, the guilt & shame.

I have to decide what to tell T tomorrow when I see her, and know she's going to be disappointed in me, maybe as much or more than I am disappointed in myself.