Hi Dreamland,
Have been looking for you since you gave me this site in "that" hospital. I want to encourage you of the growth I saw in you, even in the beginning when it was so difficult. Don't be disappointed that you are having thoughts, that is totally normal ( I know, that's not the normal we wanted) but think of the tools you received. Pull out your relapse prevention plans. Just admitting you had the thoughts tells me you DID learn, and you can get through this. I'm hoping you get what I mean and who I am. You made me work so hard when I was there, and this site is helping me too.
tunesinger, aka beverly