Hey all. Just wanted to talk, get some stuff off my mind. I've been feeling like I've been burdening all my friends by wanting to talk with them. I've only been wanting to chat, hang out, nothing too heavy or serious, but I feel like maybe I'm trying too hard. But I also feel like if I don't try, they won't either. I'm afraid of finding out that our friendship only goes one way...when its convenient for them.
For example...I was supposed to be getting together with a buddy today. He said he'd call me when he woke up (he's a night owl) and then he'd help me out with a project. No call, no project. Not surprised. I hate that I'm not surprised. I want to figure he had something come up, but in reality, he probably just had something better to do. Or forgot about our plans. I can't help but take it kind of personally. I mean, am I so easy to forget, or so easy to blow off? Apparently, yes.
Am I too needy a friend? I'm trying really hard to back off, but that leaves me sitting at home all by myself, bored and lonely and feeling sorry for myself.