I don't know what to do with my life anymore. They say to be yourself, but when I am it seems that everybody thinks I'm either not all there because of my illness, ugly and scary, or poke fun. I look around myself and see that everyone has someone, but I find myself lost in a swirling torrent of confusion as to why I have no friends, other than my cat, and a family that shuns me. I have made attempts to connect with society through personal interests and hobbies with groups, yet have turned up with very similar results. I've been feeling like this for years and don't like being all alone anymore. Where have I gone wrong? I wish I meant something to someone or had any positive signifigance in someone's life, not just one more person taking up space on this earth. I wish I had someone to talk to.
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As I laid my weary eyes
Across the open sea
My heart to die
My soul soon to free
In the stars so far in space
Before the setting sun
I looked upon her gleaming face
Upon the red horizon
I reached her far, far out
To touch her in the sky
Yet then I had my doubts
So I failed to further try
I then felt a tear
Go streaming down my cheek
I had just begun to fear
There was no use to even seek
And so my aching heart died
For my long lost friend
But then I simply realized
I would never see her again
--me
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