Hi. I hope I didn't say the wrong thing and sorry if I did. Not my intention. But I don't think you need feel guilty for what you have. You also have some serious problems that you are addressing and have trudged a very long rough road. I feel for you.

You seem to want to adopt but I know what you told me that your husband thinks on it. I wonder if there was some way to persuade him about it. There are many children in the world who need a mother and father. I'm sure you will make a wonderful mother regardles of how it happens.

As for the therapists, unless I really do not click with them right off I usually give them 3 trys. But it's up to you. take care. CQ

PS. I deleted my previous post because I'm not sure if I said something and then you felt guilty. So, it's not there anymore and I just wish the best to you, kitty, honestly.

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