((((appleandstrawberry))))

Thank you for posting and for asking for what you need. Believe me, the last thing I would tell you is to "get over it". It is not just that easy, and from the sounds of it this is something that is really laying on your heart. I can hear you and I am sorry you are going through such a hard time.

I am sorry these guys made you feel so bad. Things that people say can affect us in many ways and can cause a lot of damage to our self esteem. I do understand that as I fight everyday to find confidence and some sort of belief in myself. Words can cut deep and hurt. But you are not their words. As much as it hurts and I know it does, try to not let their words define who you are.

As far as depression, if I was you I would talk to my doctor about how you are feeling. Only a doctor can diagnose you and give you something to help there. Do you have a t? If not, I would suggest that you find one that you can talk to about your feelings and get out what you are holding. Sounds like maybe you could talk with your mom if she is someone you feel would listen and support you.

You are not bad or wrong for your feelings. As a teen, I remember feeling so down and what people said had a big effect on me. I did not have a good home life so I did not have anywhere to turn. My self-esteem did not exist and has not my whole life. So I do understand and can connect with you.

It is tough being a teen and finding yourself. I know that it really bothers you when you go home and see those guys again. Can you have someone with you when you go out? I know you cannot live always worrying about what if's but I can understand.

I am not familiar with yasmin, but I would ask your doctor. There are other pills that you can get on. And I know you are concerned about weight, skin, and mental health. But it sounds like it may already be messing with your mental health. It would not hurt to just talk with your doctor for advice.

I know the feeling of not being able to crack a smile. There are times I have to force myself to smile and many times when I just shut down so I do not have to smile. I also go to school and I am struggling to keep going and I think I am going to take some time off to take care of myself. There is nothing wrong with taking care of you----for there is only one you and you are worth taking care of.

The feeling of being told you are fat and not being so, I can relate to as I was always told that from my father and I was not fat. It is is hard and it does make you feel bad. I am sorry you are dealing with this. It never should have happened. But you are not what they said.

I would encourage you to reach out around you and start making new friends. You are in a different place now and putting those behind you from your past, though not easy, would give you a new outlook. As hard as it is, it will help you to move past what those guys did.

Please talk to your doctor about how you are feeling. And about the pill. You deserve to be heard and to take care of yourself. You are young, you have the chance to start over in a new school. Try to not let their words define who you are. Believe me when I tell you I did let others words define me and now I am fighting something that goes really deep. Internallizing what others say is very damaging. You are not their words.

Hang in there and know we are here listening. We hear what you are saying, we connect to what you are feeling. I validate how you feel and I am sorry you are feeling this way. Just know you are not what they said.

Welcome to PC and I hope you find support and friends here that you can connect to. There are many here that know what you feel and they will be able to connect to you. We will walk this path with you and listen whenever you need to talk or vent, scream or cry. Know we care. You do matter, you are important.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps