Sorry to hear that you sound so alone. I hope that you are able to talk about your problems here. Isolation is definetly not a good thing, I really think it makes every thing worse. You have no reason to be ashamed.

I also have big problems with my mother. We have big conflicts about meds. She doesn't like me being on them and constantly asks me how my meds are and if I'm having side effects.
So why does she yell at you? Just general little life things?

Take Care of Yourself,
moonlight

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