i know i already put the little trigger warning, but i just wanted to add an extra warning that this will surely be very triggering...



hi everyone. i don't remember if i've ever posted over here or not. i'm usually in schizophrenia and psychosis.
..anyways, i started SI when i was about 7 or 8, just things like hitting myself and picking at my skin and biting myself. When i turned about 10, i occasionally tried breaking my bones and such, and then i started actually cutting when i was around 14. Then, when i was 16, my depression got real bad and i started cutting everyday, mostly on my wrists. It became a nightly ritual: i would sit at the sink everynight, slit my wrists and watch the blood flow into the sink.

I have not SI'd in about 4 or 5 months, but i'm just curious to know if any of my cuts were ever severe enough to where i should have gotten stitches. it's hard for me to know for sure.
there was one i did on my hip, with a razor. I'd say i cut it about 1/4 an inch deep and it split open really wide...about 1/2 inch wide. it bled quite a lot at first, though after about 5 minutes the bleeding stopped. It bled on and off for the next week and didn't start to even heel until about 10 days.

then, there were quite a few i did on my wrist, also pretty deep and split wide open so i could see down into them. They would bleed a lot for the first 5 minutes and then stop. I'm thinking maybe i just have really fast-clotting blood, or maybe they just weren't as deep as i am thinking they were. Whenever i would let the blood run into the sink, it would already be a big clot about 1 minute later. is that normal, or does my blood clot really fast?

well, i hope this wasn't triggering for anyone who decided to read it. thanx

-Becka