I have been coming to this site for some time now and have finally gathered up the courage to start posting. I have been depressed for some time now and have sought counseling in the past but it wasn't very helpful as my therapist was...quite cold. I have my good days and my bad days. The bad days can be mild or very bad. I am often irritable and lash out at the people I care about. I have trouble sleeping as well as trouble getting out of bed in the morning. I find myself crying fairly often now. I sometimes have my normal appetite but often can't bring myself to eat much at all, though I have not lost much weight. I sometimes also get anxiety attacks. I have lost interest/enjoyment in some of the things I used to enjoy. My energy levels are low and motivation is low as well. I feel that by feeling how i've been these past few months especially, that I am letting myself and others (mainly family) down, and I don't want to feel this way anymore...
Because of this it is quite difficult for me to express my feelings about this and doing this is a big step for me. I think the anonymity helps a bit. Today I have also gathered up the courage to write to my mother about this as well. I don't think i would be able to do it face to face so I figured a note would suffice...hopefully.
Anywhos...thank you for taking the time out of your day to read or respond to this and any advice you could give me would be much appreciated.