ilazria, I don't know if you have to worry about random surveillance, though I am not positive, I cannot imagine they have enough agents to go around checking on people. Plus, its not like you are saying you cannot walk, surveying someone with mental health problems seems like it would be too complicated to "catch" someone doing something anyhow.

I used to be terrified to see a psychiatrist because I was certain "they" would think I was "bad" and take my son away. When I finally got the courage to go, my pdoc/t (same person) assured me that just because I couldn't handle tons of other things, didn't mean I was a bad mother. So...unless you are neglectful or abusive, I don't think you have to worry that anyone will take your children away. Its scary as hell though. I still struggle with the idea that I am a terrible mother, though logically I know that I do everything to the best of my ability. Good luck.

That being said, I am going to apply myself. My pdoc and I are working on the best way to say everything and he's going to "support" me through the process.

thinker22, what state do you live in that offers disability insurance? I didn't even know that was something that existed.