I saw the new T today. I think it went well. I didn't find it too difficult to open up. I talked about some of the abuse from siblings and peers of my childhood, most of which I'd talked about in the past, so it wasn't triggering, just somewhat awkward to disclose to someone I'd just met. I gave her a pretty good picture of my current life and my childhood, if only in broad strokes. We talked about what I wanted to work on and what treatment had and hadn't worked in the past. She was pretty thorough but the session wasn't an interrogation.

I told her my goal was to change my behaviour and that I hadn't managed that with past treatment. She's very supportive of scheduling, especially with depression. I willing to try it. We came up with 5 goals surrounding exercise and eating, basic self-care, and I like that because it's very measurable. Did I or did I not accomplish what I set out to do? I'm cautiously optimistic about it. I am glad we're starting out slow though. I tend to go full force and collapse quite quickly when I attempt to change on my own.