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Nov 09, 2009, 05:20 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Originally Posted by Sannah
Are you embarrassed Elysium?
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Yes and no. I think it is more shame than embarrassment. But I also think I am quite angry about it. Nurses are supposed to be compassionate and caring in their craft. The nurses that I encountered during my hospitalization were condescending, cold, they looked at me funny and I could tell they were talking about me behind the desk. I could see them as they'd glance at me and then look away quickly when I made eye contact.
I felt betrayed...almost as if I had abandoned them for the dark side and that they were now somehow better than me just because they were on the opposite side of the safety glass.
They had this "Us versus Them" mentallity that is rampant throughout too many inpatient units. They don't realize that the only real difference between being a patient and a staff member is a plastic name badge. They hide behind the stigma. It is very black and white. You are either one of them, or you are not. There was no in between.
So embarassed, yes, because I felt that I wasn't a strong enough person to handle my crap. But the shame was worse...and the condemnation I felt from the staff was almost as bad as the condemnation I felt from my abusers.  
As far as being embarrassed to take the elevator or be back at the same hospital...not really. Everybody has issues and that's what hospitals are supposed to be for.
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