I dunno how I feel right now. Though ever since I've been on this website. I've been trapped in my room most of the time. I went out ot help mum with the shopping, it was good until she pushed my out of the way. To unpack the shopping, she said sorry. But I got pissed off with her because she pushed me into a little kid. When I was going to move out of the wave. Got angry at me. Then went to the car, she throwed the stuff at me. I said that she can but the %#@&#! trolley back, as I've got even angry when she starts to be nice then stressy with me. Then she wanted a hug and I didn't want, need or deserve one so I pushed her off. Then when we got back, five minutes in the car. She talked and said she doesn't like rejection that I do to the family which is already torn apart. I said sorry, I cried and so did she. We hugged. But I feel bad, guiltly and don't deserve anything. I'm a spoilt brat ***** and I don't want anything just to be left alone. My parents are cutting the internet off at 9 o'clock so I don't abuse it? That's the only thing to get away from it all. The fighting. Why is it that even when I'm out of the way there is still arguing? Hmm... my family are just different. I really want to change myself to be better and nicer to my family, but how when I've gotten too hurt to open my heart again. What can I do to make things right again?