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Originally Posted by dreamseeker9
 jexa
You are not stupid! You're feeling hopeless and sad and scared that it will never get better - many of us can relate to those horrible feelings.
I think it's good that you sent that email to T - the more insight you give T into your feelings, the more T can help you. Hang in there!!! |
There are two reasons this was stupid: (1) T doesn't like long emails, only business-y emails, and (2) I knew how much I would obsess about it.. which I am, because she hasn't replied yet.. I am checking, checking, checking, checking my email constantly. Also I did not mention that I didn't really want to hit send.. I did it on impulse and immediately regretted it. Then I sent T another message with apologies and obsessive, repeated "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Six times. And then multiple exclamation marks etc. I'm feeling so out of control.
The second email was worse than the original email actually. Ughhhh so unhealthy, these behaviors.