thanks, everyone, I feel a lot better knowing it's not just me! I feel like I spend all week looking forward to our sessions but as it gets closer I have more and more anxiety, and then by the time I get there I'm almost incapable of opening up.

I wish I had the option of seeing T more often during this adjustment time but she has never offered that to me. Even in our session today she didn't address the issue of me not being in group anymore, which is a HUGE change for me and something I had hoped we could talk about, but other things kept coming up and soon we were out of time.

I told her today that I don't know if she knows how hard it is for me, that I just want to be invisible & it's so hard for me to come in there and let her see me. That was a huge step for me, to say something that deeply personal to her. I don't know how it felt to HER but it was important to me to say that.

anyway, thanks again, everyone!