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Originally Posted by ktgirl
Take a deep breathe, Jexa. 
It sounds like your thoughts are spiraling.
Your T will understand.
Is there something you can do to distract yourself?
I know how hard it is to wait and wait for a response. It's awful.
Please don't be so hard on yourself, ok? Please stop beating yourself up!
I understand having a moment like that, doing something impulsive and wishing more than anything that I coudl take it back.
It will be ok. 
Do you have an appt scheduled with T? Could you call T? Even if it is just a quick convo maybe that would help put your mind at ease.
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Thanks ktgirl. I don't feel like it'll be ok. I do feel like I'm in a spiral. I've been just staying here on PC, distracting myself with the internet.. It doesn't work very well. But my OCD and depression makes it so I can't read, can't think, can barely watch movies. All my mind can think about are these ruminations and bad thoughts. This sucks.
T probably won't reply til midnight since that's when she usually replies. I want to send another email to tell her not to read
any of my emails but that's just a bad idea!
I won't see T until Friday. I don't want to call her. I've been too needy lately. It will only make me feel guilty to call. I will wait. I hope her email is reassuring.
