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Old Nov 10, 2009, 04:27 AM
HOUSHI HOUSHI is offline
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Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Iran
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Originally Posted by muffy View Post
Im not perfect ..wish i was... im not thou ...im human. like everyone else i goof in life ((real life))) Im talking about. Well i goof here too. sorry
Its been a very long couple of mths. 2 minor surgerys, issues with my son. Where at times i would have to say I prolly have not listened as good as i should have.
I took in a girl i thought i was doing the right thing..that turned out a mess. well for my son it did. So that would be my fault. As i am the adult.
My daughters b/f has h1n1. he will be ok thou that good. All stresses thou.
I rearganged my life to fit other ppls life which i thought was a good thing as i love them. In turn it left me sometimes cranky and not always nice. I have used the f word...thats unlike me.((not to my kids thou))
I have yelled..which is not like me...
All of this thou I am resonsable for as it was my choices. it was I who yelled . i who used the f word. No matter what anyone else did i am responsable for me.
that saddens me..I myself can not take yelling it triggers me beyond normal I freeze or i say something i should not...
I would like to say its because i am still recovering , but then i would be using a excuse. thou i still do not feel so good.
So with all that has gone on Im depressed. some.
I know what it is as this is how i felt when my parents passed. At a loss.
Im not very good with expressing myself when it comes to this.
I really do not like being upset. Its not my normal thing.
Sometimes I see things different as other ppl do ..which can be hard on them.
I am a talker ...which means i like to try to talk it out. As i said sometimes i loss my cool ..and yell...
and then i just go quiet...and cry. which still does not help.
Im stetched to the limit. inside... I do have help here thou and that i am grateful for...sorry i just needed to write it out...
now im going to go cry and work real life.
((ty)) for listening as always

Dear Miss
you are welcome.
Thanks for this!
muffy, nowheretorun