Hi, youre not alone with how you feel, I have OCD and depression as a consequence of this condition, I have always felt alien to the rest of society.Prior And since losing my employment well over a decade ago I would always claim to fame that "I am succesful at being Unsuccessful",and when I was diagnosed with these conditions I started to believe that I was a complete failure and only a burden as my family and peers shuned me away.I continue to chip away at how i feel with great distress by detaching my feelings away from me, and avoid getting caught up in other functionable peoples emotions and life style. Every creature is here for a reason not matter what they attain or dont its the equilebrium on how the universe evolves, as i believe humans are still evolving. Please dont despair and remember you become what the mind conceives.Be around people who give sincere compassion and care about you rather than what you do or dont.Sometimes just observing nature quietly relieves me from the man made psuedo existance.Please keep in touch if you like and joining this site recently myself has given me a fresh clean outlook.Take Care.