I am crying tears of relief.

T email got sent to my spam. She actually replied early yesterday evening.

She said:

Hi Jessica.
No worries. I'm glad you sent me the email so I know what you are thinking. We can talk it through on Friday.

I don't like to go into things on email because of the issues we talked about. However, I want to say right away that I don't think this is anything permanent or global like a character flaw. I hope I have not given the impression that this is something you would have to do alone. We can work on this together.

Spiral ended. Sigh of relief.