seeker,

you describe me and my 5th grade teacher's relationship to a t. while i stayed with one family, it was horrendous. we moved every two to three years. i had a short time with her, but she was forever branded on my soul in such a good way. she showed me that there a ppl out there who care.

i'm not a sociopath. granted, i'm a woman and that plays a role. however, possibly this will help you to maybe think that he's somewhere ok, and giving you partial credit when he thinks of your care. maybe you to were him what my mrs. mc clean was to me. maybe your care and words reached him. maybe you gave him the love he needed. maybe you gave him faith in his awful world. just maybe...

my mrs mc clain allowed me to have hope and to try to keep that faith to find more like her.

kd