Googley, you've always been so kind even though you're experiencing your own pain. I can't help too much but remind you to try to love yourself even though I know that's one of the hardest things to do. Look at yourself in the mirror and smile..it does work my friend. If you can just start on this, then eventually liking yourself will become a habit I think. Then when the time is right you can share that with someone else because they'll be drawn to that beauty inside you. You have it even now, it just needs a bit of dusting off like a well-read and beloved book that's been on it's shelf, waiting to be read and loved again.

Chris