((((((((((((((((((((((Briester))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I've been trying to get him to see someone, but every time he avoids. There is a whole counseling service center at this university, they have people that can prescribe meds too. But they're not the best, and I had a very bad experience with them *meds gone wrong*, which my boyfriend saw and I don't blame him not wanting to go THERE because of this and the fact that he has insurance. All he has to do is call someone but he won't do that either.

I guess I'm stressed about it for a few reasons. I live with him, so I see it everyday. The space we live in is VERY small. I know that doing his work for him would be bad, I'm just so frustrated.

You're right I need to take a step back, but I don't know how. Because I love him so much, and we live together it's so hard to be apart in this as it's such a big part of the future. I will try.

*breathes*



((((((((((lonegal))))))))))))))))
As I was saying to Briester, I "need" him to pass because it affects me too. Without a degree he will be heartbroken, his parents will be so upset. And he won't have a degree... jobs will be harder to get, I'll be so disappointed. It'll be a waste of time and money... I guess I'm attatched to it somehow, emotionally as well as practically (degrees help get jobs and more schooling in future).

You're right.. it's been a ROUGH past few weeks. And I need to focus on ME. My getting back into school, finding an apartment with or without my boyfriend so that I cna be ok when I get BACK to school. Keeping up my job to get money in, and keeping up practicing especially for this recital this week!

Again... I need to find a way to distance myself in a healthy way.