((((((Berries))))))

I am so sorry that you feel that way. I know that a lot of my group members have never been suicidal, never been in the hospital, are holding down jobs, and many other things that I cannot relate to. Then, sometimes, someone new, or who just haven't been there in a while, will show up and are much more "like" me. Sometimes it takes time to get to know them more. They may seem like they have it all together, but it may not be the case. There is a reason they are there. One time I finally asked, "does anyone else here self-harm?" and I found out that, yes, several of them had/are.

I know you feel so badly about yourself, but I would urge you to try again, or call the contact person and ask about your concerns. Just saying this because I get so much from my meetings, even though there are times when I feel alienated too (even now sometimes).

Hang in there.