Hi Zoo! I used to get very anxious before my appts with my previous therapist (dt). SO anxiouw that, like Jexa said, my day was wrecked. That was shy I wanted a morning appt, so it was only the morning that was wrecked. Actually, if I had a monday appt, Id start getting nervous thursday or so....then again increaase nervousness on sat night thru sunday. Sounds weird....maybe thinking about t was actually a way of avoiding what was really going on with me (???).
Anyway, with my new therapist (ftt) I dont fnd mysefl so nervous before session, I always have things to talk about and it seems that if I am scared or go silent, ftt knows what to do. Maybe (for mem I dont if you feel the same) I feel some kind of trust in ftt that the session will go as it is meant to go and there is less pressure on me- I can just "Be myself." With dt, I felt "pressured" to come up with the right "problems" to work on and, especially, to come up with the right "repsonses" and emotions. This was coming from me, but I dont think she made it a safe enough enviromnent for me. So, I was very nervous before therapy. I didnt feel safe enough to open up and, as you said, let her "see me".