Sunrise mentioned taking a break from therapy. At one point in my life, I could have typed your post. I finally had enough. I cold turkey stopped therapy and meds (not that I am suggesting this), got a master's degree, got married, had a kid. I was so skeptical of mental health, and though it was a bunch of bull. Then I got triggered when my dd reached a certain age.

I'm back in therapy now, and I think having a break did wonders. It also allowed me to take more of a charge of what I want to do, how I want to be.

Mine was a very drastic break. I think if I had taken a few months earlier to figure things out before I got to crisis mode, I would have been healthier. I DO have issues that I need help resolving. And therapy is very helpful right now.

I think before, being hospitalized so many times, having people tell me what to do, what meds to take, I felt controlled and I resented it. I resented feeling like I HAD to be in therapy. Now that it's a choice, I feel so much better about it.