(((((((((Berries))))))))))


First of all, YAY BERRIES for getting yourself to that support group!!! That was an EXCELLENT step to take and I'm sure it was very scary for you. I really admire you for facing your fears. Personally, I am too terrified to put myself out there like that and I envy anyone who has the guts to actually do it!

I am so prone to thinking the exact same things as you. If I don't click with a person immediately, I assume we have absolutely nothing in common and will never be friends and it's a waste of time to try because I'm probably just too messed up to forge any kind of bond in the first place. But realistically, it takes lots of time to make friends and find out what you do have in common with other people. On top of that, look at what you're saying, and more importantly, look at what you're saying about YOURSELF. Is it possible that some of those thoughts are coming from the ILLNESS and not from Berries? You owe it to yourself to try again. You are a kind, sensitive, empathetic and insightful person and anyone would be LUCKY to call you their friend. I know how lucky I feel to have met you here at PC!

Please don't give up, and please don't believe any of those negative thoughts. They're all lies. You are worth it and after all the s*** your illness has put you through, you DESERVE to stand up to it by going out and do these things for yourself.