Thanks, Blue - I agree that my T is pretty darn special.
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I can relate very much to hugs with strngs attached. I experienced that from my mother, as well. The hugs, as I experienced them, were to comfort her and to make sure she was OK. I also feel not comfortable when hugs are for me Again, with not deserving comfort or caring.
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Blue
Exactly, hugs have always been to comfort her, not me. And so I give hugs, I don't receive them. To receive that first hug from T so openly was a really big deal for me. And even more amazing was that T told me yesterday that she could sense, just from looking at the collage, that the word "hug" carried a lot of meaning for me - I can't believe how attuned T is to me sometimes, it's scary!
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I so strongly believe it is your willingness to be open and express what you need even tho it is scary and you will be vulnerable. I love how you are learning that it is OK to be vulnerable and that you are safe.
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Thank you, Blue - it is very scary, and I'm feeling even more afraid today than I did yesterday. T and I have discussed this before, T said it's because we lose some of the connection when we're not together, so that's when I second-guess everything I've said and start to feel ashamed. So I'm glad I see T tomorrow, even though I still just feel like going in there and crying on her couch... and I just might!